finally, after all these time, i get back to my very own spot right here, and write anything that went thru my mind. looks like i found no other place in this world to actually release my intriguing thoughts.

just got back from church and pondering to the sermon. how we need to have a dream, a vision of ourselves. what we will do in the next 5 or 10 years. how to cut yourself from the past, and focused on that dream, that vision. 5 min after she gave the message, the only thing that went thru my head was that when i got home, my mom will absolutely sermonized my again! and she did. pfftt, will i ever get by this sudden attack?! dont think so, think again about sudden!!

:: cannonball // damien rice ::
this song keep on playing in my mind. it sure fits my day!

"Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball"

ohh dear.. how i absolutely feel this way for sure!! sometimes i wonder where's the thinline between sincerity and hypocracy? if i can only look into people's heart, so i can tell how, what, and why do they do things that they do, choose their decisions, hate what they like, and love what they dislike?
does honesty will really prevail? does truth is trully out there?

i hate those i love, and learn to love those i despise. what kind of life's phenomena is this? is it healthy, is it ok? is it destructive, is it common?